im BACK!!!

i went to taiwan with my parents.

siyempre to visit my lola and pinsans and aunts and uncles there

grabe, kakapagod din

we went to Taipei. My favourite city in Taiwan kasi very convenient to go from places there because they have SUBWAY/ JieYun.

Dec 24th kami pumunta ng Taiwan. Nasa Taichung yung family namin so dun kami tumitira evrytime we go there. Then on the 27th, we went to Taipei, nagovernight kmi doon. We visited my Dad's cousin there.

Tapos siyempre, nagshopping ako ng CDs and DVDs hehe cost me around 6k magastos ako talaga. hehe

we also went to see the NEW TALLEST BUILDING in the WORLD. nde na daw un sa Malaysia tallest coz this new building exceeded Petronas Towers' height. The building in Taipei is called TAIPEI 101. 101 kasi 101 floors daw.

My lola (ah-ma) gave me NT$10,000 ampao. tapos my 2 aunts gave me 2,000 each.
tapos yun, natupad din ung isa kong wish, namagkaroon ng Sony Ericsson K700i. kakatuwa. im sooooo happy! :D

Grabe kanina.. we woke up 2:30am in the morning then went to the airport by 3:15am. We arrived at around 5:30am sa airport. Eh ung flight namin 7:35am pa.

Sobrang excited ata kami umuwi hehe kasi halos first time namin magONE week sa taiwan coz before parating 3-4days lang kami nandun.

Antok pa ako... tapos magpapaputok pa later...

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Going to taiwan tomorrow morning. 10:45 am flight namin on China Airlines. We'll be back by Dec 31.

nde ko pa nagagawa formal report ko for BioChem mag Cram nnaman ako...... :(

anyways, buti na lng OK na kami ni Patty. Sobrang weird talaga namin mag away. hehehe

been busy lately, kasi nag General cleaning kami sa house.

May SIPON na ako!!!! darn DIRT!!! hehehe hala... baka pagkamalang may SARS ako mwhahahahahahaha :D

sige

ill try to update my Blog pag nasa Taiwan na ako. hiramin ko net ng pinsan ko dun heheheh

Advance Merry Christmas!!!

Jeans Jeans Jeans!

my uncle gave me a new pair of jeans!!! Levi's ulit!!! hehe just bought a pair last week i think tapos ngayon meron ulit! hehe

brand new wardrobe of jeans... heheh but to think of it, almost 3 yrs na akong nde bumili ng jeans ehehhe :D

bakasyon na!!! :D yippppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Welcome to my Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Christmas Wish List

Christmas is near!!!

Siyempre nde mawawala sa wish list ko PEACE ON EARTH, hoping that one day there will be no wars.

1. Peace on Earth
2. Good health for my parents and friends and me too
3. Hope for the broken-hearteds
4. Strength and hope for the typhoon victims
5. Patience for myself, lalo na sa studies, sana nde na ako tamarin hehe

nde din mawawala ung mga material things hehe pero marami talaga

1. CDs Simple Plan, Ryan Cabrera, Kitchie Nadal, Hilary Duff, Celine Dion etc...
2. Movies VCD/DVD Garfield, Troy, Spiderman 2 etc
3. Brand new Desktop PC, ung HP Pavillion P4 3.2, 160GB, 512DDRAM hehe
4. an iPOD mini
5. HP iPaq RX3417
6. TRIP TO KOREA!!!!

PRIORITY KO.. Pinakagusto ko
7. siyempre ung sobrang pinapangarap ko SONY ERICSSON K700i or maybe the S700i hehe

syempre alam ko sobrang out of the world na kung mareceive ko tong lahat hehe pero SANA hehe

:D la lng

practicals ko na later sa Comparative Anatomy Lab good luck sa akin!!! :D

Bad trip...

sige, ituloy yan

i'll just keep quiet

mukhang masaya ka naman

kung alam mo lng

masakit

pero ok lng

salamat

at hanggang maaga

nalaman

buti na lng

pero...

現在, 我真的很恨你. 真的謝謝你這樣對我. 不知道你跟別人說我甚麼話. 但是, 現在沒關係. 很早看到你的真臉. 不知道我為什麼喜歡上你這樣的人.

分手???我們已經分手了? 好棒哦!!! 沒想到我跟你已經有關係了...

Soooo TRUE!! a MUST READ!

The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual
understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends.
Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the
persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may
verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your
feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking
for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero
sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.

This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for
different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love each
other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason.
And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.

It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong
nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya
kunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang.

Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo --usually
the guy --may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-break
doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya
ginagawa), wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa
kasi "hindi naman kayo."

This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo na
kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."

Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala
talagang kasiguraduhan.

So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi
naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan?

Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang. Puwedeng "buti na iyan
kesa wala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom." Meaning, habang wala pa
iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.

For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think
that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would
be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.

Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga
pseudo-relationships din ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest
reason that they couldn't commit, because they were either committed to
someone else, or that they weren't ready to commit.

My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."

Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong
nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing.
Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong
galing sa kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa
ang the real thing, puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.

But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship,
the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang babae
lagi ang lugi.

Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a
relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo?
May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain
about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with
you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it
to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos?

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be sure if
he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya.
Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're
not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang.
This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship.
Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have
invested all your emotions and this man hasn't? What if you remain
faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is
seeing other girls?

Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a
disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the
end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka
lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan. Kasi sa
pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi
"us."

Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi
eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship, hindi
mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be
miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only to find out
eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship with somebody
else.

Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then
you'd end up hurting yourself in the process.

Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo
muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the
consequences.

But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the
process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the moment without
worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with
pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing.

When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable
guy, a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka.
Magpakasaya ka. Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan
kita."

Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo.
Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero
hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya
... almost, but not quite.

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Another version


The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends. Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi.

This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for different reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.

It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa- kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang.

But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang babae lagi ang lugi.

Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos?

Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya. Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all.

Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your emotions and this man hasn't? What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is seeing other girls?

Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo- relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan. Kasi sa pseudo- relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."

Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and then you'd end up hurting yourself in the process.

Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang
future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences.

But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili. You can be happy and live the moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing.

Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo. Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually,
hanggang doon lang siya... almost, but not quite.

"Memories are our way of keeping in touch with the past. It is the means in which we remember special moments, those moments in our lives that made us laugh, that made us cry, moments meant to last us a lifetime."

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got this from an email, la lng sobrang totoo lng...

*sigh*

-= BCuz of U =-

waaahhhh nood kami ng sine kanina, guess what kung ano ung pinanood namin, BCUZ of YOU! hehe

anyway, ok naman ung movie, FEEL Good Movie siya,

SANDARA is soooo cute in the movie hehe

HEART was soooo breath taking!!! ang ganda ganda niya!!! :D

although, bitter nga lng ako hehe iba na pananaw ko diyan hehe :( la lng, bitter lng talaga ....

but this should be over, life must go on

thanks to Jovilyn for enlightening me... tama ka jovi, there are somethings that are more important na dapat bigyang pansin.. we should not let those things pass... tama ka...

thank you talaga

My Love Xiao Ru 

Stiffneck parin...

waahhhh... sniff sniff

sana bukas wala na


aral pa ako ng Compa Lec...

4 Chapters!!! 100 pages!!! la pa ako nasisimulan!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh