I think I'm the "tree"

Tree

People call me "Tree".
I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf

People call me Leaf.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled &
didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn'task her to stay.

Wind

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."
"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could n't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...


In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.

There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss?
This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for
those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for
you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you earn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward ears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever. ..
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone....

when i was a boy,^" + "i fell off a tree and i managed to hang on to a branch.^" + "i don't know for how long i was hanging there.^" + "my arms went numb,^" + "i could hear my blood pounding in my ears.^" + "i don't remember the pain that i felt when i hit the ground.^" + "all i can remember,^" + "is the agony of holding on^" + "and the wonderful feeling of letting go.^" +

Heartbeats..

was reading my previous posts since i started this blog. ive only written 5 heartbeats.. pretty bad huh... time passes by very quickly... what a very worn-out phrase... but im disappointed with myself for writing little.. guess i had a little problem to how i will express it.. been writing about my experiences, the things that are happening in my life. but i havent really written anything... thoughts of my heart and mind. after reading the blogs of other people, i've told myself.. i want to write something as good as theirs. something more... more from the heart... i should live up to the expectations of my blog.. the title of my blog.. Latido del corazón.. heart beats...

Memoirs of a Single Man

just came across a blog of somebody, i dont know him. hehe anyway, my best bud mic gave it to me. all i can say that he is a good writer! so damn good! very emotional.. check it out to see why it's good ;)

http://www.livejournal.com/users/x_boyfriend/

iPod mini Baby! :D

my aunt just bought me an iPod Mini!!!! Yipee!!!! hmm im expecting it to arrive in 2 weeks :D

Regresa A Mi by Il Divo

No me abandonas asi
hablando sola de ti
Ven y devuelveme al fin
la sonrisa que se fue
Una vez mas
tocar tu piel
e hondo suspirar
Recuperemos lo que se ha pedido

Chorus
Regresa a mi
Quiereme otra vez
Borra el dolor
que al irte me dio
cuando te separaste de mi
Dime que si
Ya no quiero llorar
Regresa a mi
No puedo, vida

Extraño el amor que se fue
Extraño la dicha tambien
Quiero que vengas a mi
y me vuelvas a querer
No puedo mas
si tu no estas
Tienes que llegar
Mi vida se apaga
Sin ti amilado

Chorus

No me abondonas asi
hablando sola de ti
Devuelveme la pasion de tus brasos

Regresa a mi
Quiereme otra vez
Borra el dolor que al irte me dio
cuando te separaste de mi
Dime que si

I'll Never Go

This song is soooo good...

You always ask me
Those words i say
And telling me what it means to me

Every single day
You always act this way
For how many times i told you
I love you
For this is all i know

Come to me and hold me
And you will see
The love i give
For you still hold the key

Every single day
You always act this way
For how many times i told you
I love you
For this is all i know

Chorus:
I'll never go far away from you
Even the sky will tell you
That i need you so
For this is all i know
I'll never go far away from you

Come to me and hold me
And you will see
The love i give
For you still hold the key

Every single day
You always act this way
For how many times i told you
I love you
For this is all i know

Chorus

IN LOVE KA BA or LOVE MO SIYA?

It's definitely different when you love someone
and when you're inlove with someone"
explanation:

alin nga ba ang mas malalim?

Loving someone or Being in love with someone?

marami sa atin ang na confuse tungkol dito.

Ikaw ba ay may girlfriend o boyfriend ngayon?

Mahal mo ba siya pero parang may isang tao na
parang mahalaga din sayo o may mahal ka na
akala mo eh mahal mo nga siya pero meron ka pa
rin isang tao na minamahal ng
totoo.

Kapag love mo ang isang tao masaya ka..

Feeling mo ok na ang lahat...

pero ang ma-inlove ka, ang siyang pinakamasakit
sa lahat!

Kasi ang mga taong inlove ay ang mga taong
ngsasakripisyo at ngpaparaya.

Teka bakit ka nga ba ngpaparaya?

Dahil ba hindi ka niya mahal o dahil hindi ka
siguradong ok lang sa kanya?

Kung yan ang dahilan mo, walang duda na inlove
ka nga sa kanya.

Kasi iniisip mo kung anong meron kayo sa ngayon
ang tanging mahalaga at kontento ka na.

Pero isipin mo paano kung mawala ang taong yon
at talagang hindi na kayo mag-usap at magkita,
kaya mo ba?

Paano naman kung sayo siya inlove at ibinigay
niya ang lahat para sayo pero hindi mo
napahalagahan ang lahat ng ito kaagad!

Paano kung isang araw naguluhan na siya sayo
ng husto at maisipang lumayo na lang?

Paano kung sa sobrang pagiging iba mo sa kanya
di ka na niya kausapin at tuldukan na niya ng
tuluyan kung ano na ang meron kayo?

Then bigla mong na realize kung gaano
kaimportante sayo ang bawat isa kaya lang wala
na siya! Kaya mo ba?

Kung hindi ang sagot mo, malinaw na inlove ka
nga...

Paano naman pag mahal mo lang, kapag mahal
mo
lang,
alam mo na palagi kang may choice, ayaw mo
siyang mawala dahil alam mong wala kang ipapalit.

Yung masaya ka sa kanya pero sa gabi hindi
naman siya ang iniisip mo.

Mahal mo siya pero aminado ka sa sarili mo na
balang araw hindi siya ang pakakasalan mo.

Mahal mo siya pero ang puso mo hindi lang pra sa
kanya..

Mahal mo at masasaktan ka kapag nawala siya
pero alam mo na kaya mo yon.

Ngayon anong nararamdaman mo:
DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE or YOU'RE INLOVE
WITH SOMEONE?

Isang araw magigising ka na lang na INLOVE ka
na
nga pero kahit anong gawin mo ay huli na.

Dahil maaaring yung taong INLOVE din sayo ay
wala na pala.

Tandaan mo Masyadong mapaglaro ang puso
huwag tayo magpaloko!!!

We learn to love someone pero minsan lang
dumating sa atin ang pagkakataong ma-inlove!!!

Kaya kapag dumating ito, ano ang gagawin mo?
--
MaLt-
--
It must only be a matter of a moment once it is
gone... we should probably be able to laugh at it
someday... but the feeling will stay forever in the
depths of the heart... It's precious, only here for
now... for it is our season...

So one season ends, and a new one begins...

VACATION!

whew!!! at last! after a month of HELL.. finally.. its over... but not that over yet... pray for my compa lec grade... :( wahh... i dont want to fail!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.... i hope i pass that...

this summer.. plans... do the first sampling for our research project..

anyway, my 3-yr old shoes just worn out.. it's officially broken.. anyway, bought a new one today hehe avoiding the June Class opening rush! Got a GBX shoes, syempre sale pa! mwahahahaha got it cheaper by 400 pesos hehe

bought some VCD Movies too.. and a Nine Live! CD :D

that's it for me now..

Here we go again

...

Storybook*

i love this song so much! this was from The CompanY's 2001 album STORYBOOK*

Minsan Isang Araw

'Di ka ba nangingiti
Pag naalala
Na minsan, isang araw
Noong tayo'y magkita
'Di ko noon akalain
Ikaw na pala
Ikaw pala't ako
At minsan, isang araw
Sasabihin 'ko sa 'yo….

HININTAY-HINTAY KA NG PUSO KO
MINAHAL-MAHAL KA SA ISIP KO
DUMATING NA PAG-IBIG AY IKAW
NANGYARI BIGLA
NOONG MINSAN, ISANG ARAW

'Di ka ba natatawa
Pag naalala
Na minsan isang araw
Bigla mong nakita
Ang mga mata ko'y
'Di na kumurap
Parang nangangarap
Na minsan, isang araw
Puso mo'y makausap

(REPEAT CHORUS)

Kay sarap balikan
Isang araw, minsan
Kay sarap balikan
Noong minsan
Tayo'y nagmahalan

HININTAY-HINTAY KA NG PUSO KO
MINAHAL-MAHAL KA SA ISIP KO
ANG MAHAL MO NGAYON AY HINDI NA AKO
ANG NAKAKATAWA'Y
IBA NA RIN ANG MAHAL KO!

HININTAY-HINTAY KA NG PUSO KO
MINAHAL-MAHAL KA SA ISIP KO
ANG PAG-IBIG PALA'Y NAGBABAGO
MAY MAHAL KANG "IBA"
"IBA" NA RIN ANG MAHAL KO!

Noong minsan, isang araw
Nagbago, isang araw

and also this song...

Pag Nagkataon

Bakit ang ngiti mo'y
Iba yata ngayon
Ngiti ng umiibig
'Di nga ba gano'n 'yon?
Ano kaya't ako
Ang nasa puso mo
'Pag Nagkataon
Ang ligaya ko!

Bakit ang tingin mo'y
Iba yata ngayon
Tingin ng umiibig
'Di nga ba gano'n 'yon?
Sino nga kaya
Ang nasa puso mo?
Sino ba ang mahal
Ng minamahal ko?

'PAG NAGKATAON
'PAG MINAHAL MO
BUONG PUSO KO'Y
IBIBIGAY SA 'YO
ARAW-ARAW SASABIHIN
MINAMAHAL KITA
'PAG NAGKATAONG
TAYO NG DALAWA

Bakit ang saya mo?
'Pag kasama kita
Baka nga totoong
Nagmamahal ka na
Sana ay ikaw
Ang kapalaran ko
'Pag nagkataon
Liligaya tayo!

Ako kaya o iba?
Sino nga bang mahal mo talaga?
May kaba ako ngayon
Ano kaya?
'Pag Nagkataon

At last!!!

whew! just had our Research Proposal Defense today

what a day! barely had enough sleep, wasnt even able to study well for my Biochem lab exam but it all ended well

the defense was nerve-racking! The panelists were scary! esp. Ma'am Simeon, she asks lots of questions! luckily, she left hehe before presenting our proposal. whew!

we were the last group to present, the presentation was a breeze. they asked a few questions, we answered them and that's it! APPROVED!!! YEAY!!!

It's been a long time!

hiya! im back!

been busy for the past weeks..

THESIS THESIS THESIS!
EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS!

ahhhhhhhhhhh can't wait until SUMMER!!!!